Here we go!

I have a running blog. I’ve posted exactly zero posts about running. It’s about time I make an update, yeah?

On a whim, my sister and I decided to start training for a half-marathon. Okay, more accurately: we’ve been meaning to do a half marathon for a while, ever since running eight miles over the summer in a cross country practice left us feeling invigorated and excited and accomplished. But for whatever reason, we decided to start training. This week. For a half-marathon. Which is quite possibly the most test-filled week I’ve ever experienced. (Like, you don’t understand how earnestly I say this. I had four tests today. FOUR. FOUR. I can not get over this.)

Our training is probably the most haphazard half-marathon schedule I’ve ever seen. First of all, we don’t even have, like, a half-marathon to do once training’s up. We’re just going to work up to thirteen miles, I guess, and sign up for the next half-marathon that pops up! Also, we have no scientific strategy behind it. We just downloaded a random schedule from the internet, tacked it on our bedroom wall (so it can stare us down and guilt us into running), and we were good! We picked it partially because of the rest days. And because it didn’t involve specific running workouts (such as fartlek, sprints, etc. etc.), just a simple mile goal to achieve each day. Here’s the plan, if any of you guys are curious. I mean, we got it off of halfmarathons.net, so it must be somewhat credible!

(Basically, what I’m saying is that this is probably a very bad way to approach your first ever half-marathon. But whatever works, I guess!)

And well, we’re off! The first day of training was Monday. Consequently, it was a rest day. SWEET. I have to say I did exceptionally well that day. I worked really hard at, um, resting.

And today was the first day of actual running. A three mile run.

For whatever reason, this three mile run felt significantly harder than any of the other 3-mile runs I’ve done in the past. There’s probably some meaningful metaphor in there that I’m too lazy to decipher.

I’m actually shocked at how much I’ve decreased since cross country. I mean, I didn’t expect to leap right back into my PR mile times and such. But I’m right back where I was at the beginning of summer, last year. I’m only slightly disheartened, but because I know I’ve done it once, I can sure as heck do it again. Horah, optimism!

Even so, seeing a 10:30 mile pace when I used to run an easy 8:30 is a bit difficult to come to terms with. I’ll post my actual stats at the end of the post. I’ll also be starting up a new Dailymile account (or continue with my old forgotten account, I guess, but that doesn’t seem as metaphorically resonant as “turning over a new leaf” and “starting anew) to track my progress there.

Also, I don’t know if I’ve ever really mentioned this before on my blog, so I might as well now: I’m a triplet. I have one sister. And one brother. And my sister is wonderful and fantastic and we’re embarking on this journey together. Even so, like, I want to warn anyone who trains for half-marathons with siblings, especially if you’re competitive:

It is really, really freaking annoying when you see your sister’s ponytail bobbing ahead of you. And suddenly anger flares inside of you and you speed up to show her up but then she goes faster and you fall behind so you get even angrier and kick it up a bit and you’re suddenly conscious of the numbness of your feet and the harshness of your breath and the sun blistering on your face and your sister’s ponytail is bobbing ahead of you and I promise you:

You will want to give up.

Don’t.

Don’t give up.

You can do this. I can do this. Horah, for optimism!

Also, I want to post an update on my eating progress and stuff, and for the most part I can say it’s going pretty good. I’m trying to not listen to the voice in my head that whispers, “You’ll be faster if you lose weight. You’re slow because you gained all that weight.”

But, seriously: what does it matter? I’m working hard and breathing hard and I’m loving my body regardless of where my weight falls! I’m also trying to approach eating as I did when I was a little kid. And by this I mean that food consumed about .05% of my thoughts because I could eat whatever I want and how much I wanted and, more importantly, I had better things to do and better things to think about than planning out 6 evenly proportioned meals.

It’s hard, to eat like this. But I know know know that this choice is the best decision I have made, and I need to remind myself daily that food should not be complicated.

I’ve made this update long enough, so I’m going to trail off and maybe vanish for a few months because this post should be enough to qualify me for a hiatus. Okay, joking! I’ll try to update at LEAST once a week on my training, and almost daily on my Dailymile, but. You know me. Commitment. Promises. We already know how that went.

Until next time! ~ Tianna

Time: 31.55.5

Distance: 3.02 mi

Pace: 10.34

Splits:

Mile 1:11.01

Mile 2: 10.46

Mile 3: 9.57

 

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So. Hello, again!

*dusts off blog*

*clears throat*

*ducks head*

Well, uh. I told you I had commitment issues, didn’t I?

It’s been almost two months since I last logged on to my WordPress account, and on a lazy Saturday evening it finally struck me: “Oh yeah. I have a blog.”

So. I have a blog. Hi, everyone! I say this facetiously because I’m pretty sure I’m speaking only to a couple of Spam bots. If I’m lucky. I think they’ve even abandoned ship.

To be fair, I’ve been out of the running loop the past couple of weeks, and I think I’ve mentally shut out anything to do with running. To condense everything that’s been spinning through my head since I last posted: I’m trying to remedy some eating issues before I run again because I really want to do it right.  I want running to be a part of my life, and a good part. I don’t want it to be my center. I’ve struggled with some control issues in the past couple of years and I’m really trying to leave that all behind me. I want to eat normally, and enthusiastically, and fearlessly. I want to enjoy life and enjoy my body and enjoy everything that life has to offer. And I can’t do it when I measure food, or control it, or base my life on it.

So, to do this, I came up with a mantra: Food should not be complicated.

Why shouldn’t it be? Our bodies are, actually, you know, bodies. They’re smart and wise and they know when I’m hungry and when I want an extra piece of cake after dinner. They aren’t machines that you can calibrate, calories in, calories out. We’re human beings.

So. Deep breath in. Exhale.

I’m just going to . . . eat. Healthfully. And not so healthfully. But always with gusto and enthusiasm. I’m going to listen to my body and respect it and honor it but never deprive it of anything — ever, ever again.

I’m on this planet to live and laugh and love, not count almonds or calories or portions of cottage cheese. I’m not here to whittle myself down, or restrict myself to a lowest minimum weight, or sculpt and twist and hurt my body into our society’s vision of “Beautiful.”

I want to run because I know I can and it makes me feel powerful and strong and unconquerable.

I want to run for myself. I want it to be more about health. I want it to be for me. I’m more than a number. I deserve to live for more than my next meal.

And, so, here’s to a new rebirth of Mind Over Mile.

I’m running. For myself. And I’m eating, vigorously. Food is freaking fantastic.

I’m also going to delete my previous posts so I don’t feel like a failure with commit issues. ❤

NOT QUITTING BUT KIND OF.

*takes a deep breath*

To be honest, I didn’t really think through this post every day for a month thing. I can hardly keep a blog for a day!

With school starting on Tuesday, AP classes are going to be hectic — what little time I have to write a blog post will most likely be spent, instead, having emotional break downs or reading the Lord of the Rings (CJ from http://cjplaysthecello.wordpress.com told me about this super awesome Lord of the Rings-read-a-long, which I encourage everyone to check out!)

So, er — I’m breaking off the challenge. (I told you I had commitment issues – but at least I didn’t quit on day one!)However, I do expect to update frequently re: running, training, etc. etc.!

SEE, I’M COMMITTED.

I just arrived home from a seven hour trip…and I’m making a blog post.

Now that is dedication.

Okay, I’m exhausted and I have absolutely no plan for this blog post and I’m sure no one wants to read my post-trip-muddled brain — I just didn’t want to fail on Day 3.

Please enjoy this picture of Legolas — I’m on a LOTR fix right now! — in lieu of a blog post.

Focus

Well, this is unexpected.

Tianna posts a post right after her previous post . . . post. Because I didn’t say post enough.

In all seriousness, this is a record, guys: a consecutive two day streak. Light some fireworks, pop open some apple cider — I’m only seventeen, remember! –  because MAN,  I am on FIRE. This time, it’s going to be different. No more discarding blogs and leaving them in the dust. This time, I’m COMMITTED.

And just to show you how committed I am, I’m making a blog post when it’s not required. There was no blog post challenge for this. Nope. I relied entirely on self motivation for this baby. Also, I wanted to make this a 30-Day Blog Challenge, so imagine the impression I’d give off when I failed on Day Two of the challenge (“teenage slacker, has commitment issues, avoid reading blog at all costs”).

The Zero to Hero Challenge for today was to assess your blog title, tag line, and focus of the blog. I’ve taken the time to mull them over, and I’ve come up with . . . absolutely nothing.

(Actually, I think my blog title is pretty clever, if I do say so myself! It’s a play on words of the aphorism “Mind over matter” which, in short, means that if you make up your mind to do something, no matter how hard it is, you can do it. I thought this fit aptly with running!)

When I created this blog, I had planned it to be centered around running and training: but as I explored other blogs and roamed the net, I realized I also wanted to share a part of my life with others that extended beyond fitness.

So, for now, I think this is more of combination between a lifestyle blog ,where posts will center around my life (no way, really??!!) as well as a running journal which will center around (you’ll never guess it) running!

I also wanted to thank each and everyone of you that stumbled across my blog, read my first post, or left a comment. It’s much harder to leave my blog to collect cobwebs when I know it’s being read by an audience, regardless of how small! 🙂

So, thank you!

Okay, now that I’ve written my second post, back to marathoning Lord of the Rings!

We meet again, dear blog.

This post is part of the Zero to Hero event at WordPress! If you’re anything like me (and your year-old blog does nothing but collect dust and the occasional spam comment), I invite you to join me! Let’s become heroes together!

You can usually tell when I’m going to create a blog when an existential crisis begins to occur . This has happened, periodically, for the past three years, and it’s more of a safety-blanket than a commitment, more of an identity exploration – or creation –  than any project or hobby.

I think the reason I create blogs is I like the idea of being someone. That is, I like the idea of being someone more than I like the actual being part. When you create a blog, you create yourself. I can, quite literally, be anyone. I can be a food blogger or a runner.  An upbeat teen girl who posts pictures of Starbucks cappuccinos while wearing yoga pants or a snarky nerd documenting ventures in HTML. I’ve struggled with my identity for years, and I tend to express this through social media through a variety of personas, usernames, and – of course – blogs.

This blog, Mind Over Mile, is my newest creation. But, instead of abandoning it, leaving it to wither away along with a persona I tried on and tossed aside, I want this to be different – I want this blog to express me, the real me, whomever that may be.

And who am I?

I think I’m a runner.

I mean, I’m not a very good one. But I still count as one, right?

This blog will, hopefully, document the progression from an amateur runner in love with peanut butter to an enthusiastic marathoner who downs a jar of peanut butter without a flicker of guilt.

I’ll post pictures, updates, reflections, worries,  races, etc, etc. It will also document my life outside of running – such as school, daily reads, or the rare occasions in which I stare at nature instead of my computer monitor.

Also, I’m going on a run right now. I’m staying in Las Vegas, and they have treadmills at the hotel I’m staying it. It’s not as good as running in nature – but it will have to do!

Yrs,

Tianna